i don't need any anti-natalist screed. i do not have strong opinions for or against continuing the human race or preserving civilisation or whatever.
a few of my friends have had kids at this point. maybe 30-40%. not the majority, but it won't be long at this rate. i've got a fair idea of what parenthood involves.
the first few years look like hell. and frankly i am not as set-up or accomplished as i want to be yet. there's a few more things i, selfishly or not, want to do for myself. i don't fancy trying to do a PhD while raising a toddler. i may be a genius but the human mainframe has its limits. von neumann didn't change nappies.
i always said i'd properly assess these things by 40. that's a bit of a cut-off point for me when it comes to putting all the follies of youth and bucket-list type living behind me. i do think you can find other, if not necessarily deeper, satisfactions in serving other people and settling down beyond a certain age. you can learn a lot about yourself by taking on those serious responsibilities. i've got friends with kids who seemed to have tied down their lives and extinguished their hopes far too young; but on the other hand, i've at this point seen a lot of the 'eternal traveller' type, too. continually chasing your own bliss, the next horizon, finding enlightenment, etc. can be a very lonely and unproductive affair if you don't know when to wrap it all up.
everything in moderation. i generally trust my gut on these things. my life has seemed to transition from one phase to the next without any great deal of anxiety, agonising, deliberation, effort, yada yada. i left behind a long-term relationship and went to asia in the great decompressing after covid. after a few years of living with myself and at my own amorous leisure, i met my other half just by existing in tokyo. she slid into my instagram DMs based on a music event we both shared. it was that easy. didn't even have to use a dating app, etc. and now here we are. 'slow and smooth', as our long-departed marine friends would have said when breaching a room to shoot a bunch of afghan 14 year olds in the face.
I have no idea if the bar has always been that low.
tbh dating apps have just made it that little bit easier to connect with desperate and lonely people. that's it. you always could have found some 'left behind' girl in her township or picked up some harlot on the bar scene, prior to dating apps, who would just have quickly rushed through the steps with you. i would say that is very unwise. things have proceeded pretty quickly in this relationship, now, but it's not as if i didn't just spend the last 3 years dating lots of women who were very keen to settle down with me in seoul and knowing when and how to respectfully decline.
we are also just at 'that age'. dating same-aged women in their 30s invariably means meeting people in a rush. you generally don't need to take 2 years of being 'in a relationship' before getting serious. those kinds of proving periods are like for people in their early 20s who have lots of time and still have the training wheels on. there's healthy and unhealthy ways to have a whirlwind romance. i think you know better than anyone else the sort you're having.
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